Wednesday, September 21, 2011


So I just got home from the Dr's and bummer of news.  My new medicine is controlling my symptoms but not my body.  So my most recent labs showed that my inflammation marker is back up.  So Dr wants me to consider changing meds.  Bummer because the new med is done through IV infusion that take about 3 hours.  It is more expensive etc.....  Bummer Bummer Bummer  Now I have to try to make another impossible decision and do what I think is right.  Time to get out the old knee pads, I am sure I will be on my knees a lot trying to make this decision.  Bummer Bummer Bummer

Sunday, September 11, 2011


As this momentous occasion has slowly come, and I have remembered back to that fateful day, my heart is full and breaking for all of those who lost loved ones 10 years ago.  A couple of my friends lost friends that day and it makes the anniversary even that much harder.  I would like to reflect just for a moment some of the significant quotes from that day and about that day:

Terrorism against our nation will not stand.”

- George W. Bush – Remarks at Emma Booker Elementary School. Sarasota, Florida – delivered 11 September 2001, 9:30 A.M. EDT

“Time is passing. Yet, for the United States of America, there will be no forgetting September the 11th. We will remember every rescuer who died in honor. We will remember every family that lives in grief. We will remember the fire and ash, the last phone calls, the funerals of the children. “

- President George W. Bush, November 11, 2001

Our enemies have made the mistake that America’s enemies always make. They saw liberty and thought they saw weakness. And now, they see defeat.

- George W. Bush, President of the United States

“Now, we have inscribed a new memory alongside those others. It’s a memory of tragedy and shock, of loss and mourning. But not only of loss and mourning. It’s also a memory of bravery and self-sacrifice, and the love that lays down its life for a friend–even a friend whose name it never knew. “

- President George W. Bush, December 11, 2001

"All of a sudden there were people screaming. I saw people jumping out of the building. Their arms were flailing. I stopped taking pictures and started crying." - NY free-lance photo journalist, Michael Walters

Workers adjust beams for the Tribute in Lights for the tenth anniversary of the September 11 terrorist attacks Credit: Getty Images

What do you remember, how do you remember?  How we live our lives after is a testament to what we learned.  I hope that those who lost their lives that their sacrifice was not in vain, that we have become a more loving and caring people, that we see someone in need and reach out to them to help.  That we don't allow violence to happen in front of our faces and not put forth a hand to stop it. 


Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Shocking 2 Post's in 1 Week

So lately I have been pondering what I am doing here.  It seems like my life is stagnant and not going any where, anytime I pray about it I get the same answer "you need to have patience".  I have been mad, maybe more the mad, angry may be a better term for it.  Not the I smashed my thumb and I can't believe I did that anger, more the What is He thinking?  Does he know how much it hurts to keep carrying on and not want to go to bed and never wake up anymore forever again?  I know he does it just seems like my life is going nowhere and will continue to go nowhere until I do something, which I can't really do, because I need to have patience! 

Thus my venting I apologize, but really what do I have to do to get moving in some direction, preferably in the positive not the negative?  I guess keep praying for strength to survive where ever this will take me.  No wonder why Satan is working overtime. 

Shout out to Laurel who has tried to be my savior 3 times now!  Thanks for all that you do and your listening to the spirit and doing as directed!  You almost caught me twice, I finally gave in the last time THANK YOU!  I just wish I was stronger then I am and that I would keep myself above water like you do, something to look forward to in a better place at a different time. 

So now that I am done venting I guess I will go to bed and keep praying for something to make things better!  Praying for a calmer, nicer, non-angry me!  I know that my family would be happy with anything other then what they have now! 

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

It's been awhile

So it's been awhile since I have posted, summer has been crazy busy and fun and depressing all in the same sentence.

I went for blood work last week, and my inflammation markers are up 0.2, the exact # they were down last time so that is a bummer of huge proportions.  Oh well I will carry on. 

What have I been up too you ask?  Lots of YW, Family, and Holidays.  All kinds of fun

 Jonathan and his family all decked out in sunglasses
 Baby Pigs at the family reunion
 Can you see the baby bird in the nest?  So cute
 Whitney's birthday cake, she is wearing the hat I gave her for her birthday!
 Young Women playing croquet at my house, it was all kinds of fun
 Kids all lined up to watch fireworks on Pioneer Holiday so cute!
 My brothers the pyromaniacs
 The last hurrah of the fireworks
 Clara and Timmy watching the fireworks
 Young women boating trip to Deer Creek, wake boarding and the girls cheering her on!

 Playing in the water
 Leaders on the tube having fun
 Tube wipe out
I think they are going over!

Well that is how my summer has gone by, quickly I may add!  Here is to cooler weather and fun fall activities and traditions!